The reason that led me to make the trip (French) of Santiago was the realization of a crisis that was growing in me ...... a capricious dissatisfaction of my life, surpassed and exceeded at 40 years. A momentary escape from human society, made, for some, of a race to wellbeing at all costs, to show all kinds of public affairs, cars, technological objects, clothes (even in the Church). As a believer, I thought the path could give me a bit of "light". An inner peace to cultivate.
Walking with your feet and not with the car or the means of transport.
I found glimpses of light, already in myself - in my walking in company or in solitude - in sharing inner motivations and moments of life with other pilgrims (few but there were).
But I also found several "dark" ones. People who make observations, not asked, on the model of shoes or backpack worn (hmm .... there are better products on the market), people who are in a hurry to book hostels many days before arriving (how?), People who complain (regardless) of the pilgrims of that or that other nationality (they are the usual ... noisy, uncivilized, good drinkers .....) when instead in the reality ...
People who complain about the owners of hostels for the rough ways to welcome the pilgrim, because they do not lend themselves to speak in English, for the allocation of the bed. But also the owners themselves who sometimes gave me the impression of being good "accountants")). People who run to visit that or that church to have the seal / stamp on the compostela.
But I went on, perhaps "brutally" but for me they were a photocopy of what I was avoiding (before the cammino).
I respected all the rules that a person should have when he / she is (inevitably) sharing a path together with others.
Probably I will also have made mistakes, leaving too soon people who were walking with me or casually watching those people I spoke of before. Not stopping to contemplate some important place of faith and Christian history. Some more reflection inside of me ... mea culpa.
I concluded that the
Camino de Santiago was for me a "first" test, which was not as I hoped, but it is a matter of trial and we know, sometimes we need more "trials" to get a result.
I am sorry for those who defend "almost jealously a sort of" spirituality / sacredness "that they no longer find in the whole of the pilgrim's journey, but today more than ever, everyone makes his way for different reasons and if, the reason was that to be a sort of cheap holiday, I'm sure "once" it's enough for them.
I apologize if I somehow offended someone.
I wish you all a peaceful 2019.