HBS60
Active Member
- Time of past OR future Camino
- August 2024 (planned)
Update
I haven’t posted in several days and stopped responding to comments because I’ve been simply too emotionally and physically exhausted and could not keep up.
The Camino took every ounce of strength from me and I’ve been depressed, not because I’m longing to return to it, but because I can’t keep putting up a brave, positive front while feeling drained inside.
I’m glad that I did it and that I got to finish it, I enjoyed the gorgeous views and I feel good that I was able to deal with several challenges, but I think maybe I pushed myself too hard and ran out of dopamine/cortisol/whatever other hormones involved in the stress response. Coming home to clean up after a hurricane, and then having to go through another one didn’t help, either.
Paradoxically, the Camino stirred up lots of issues that are very personal and I prefer to keep private, and I’ve been struggling with unexpected anger and negativity about my failures in these areas, which I don’t want to bring to this board as I think they not appropriate for this venue. I believe that, at least for now, I should take a break, let things process themselves, and I might consider returning to these boards in the future. This time of the year my depression tends to flare up and I’m trying to stave off an emotional relapse.
Thank you all for the support and feedback these past several months, it’s much appreciated and I remain grateful.
Blessings to all!
Hector
I haven’t posted in several days and stopped responding to comments because I’ve been simply too emotionally and physically exhausted and could not keep up.
The Camino took every ounce of strength from me and I’ve been depressed, not because I’m longing to return to it, but because I can’t keep putting up a brave, positive front while feeling drained inside.
I’m glad that I did it and that I got to finish it, I enjoyed the gorgeous views and I feel good that I was able to deal with several challenges, but I think maybe I pushed myself too hard and ran out of dopamine/cortisol/whatever other hormones involved in the stress response. Coming home to clean up after a hurricane, and then having to go through another one didn’t help, either.
Paradoxically, the Camino stirred up lots of issues that are very personal and I prefer to keep private, and I’ve been struggling with unexpected anger and negativity about my failures in these areas, which I don’t want to bring to this board as I think they not appropriate for this venue. I believe that, at least for now, I should take a break, let things process themselves, and I might consider returning to these boards in the future. This time of the year my depression tends to flare up and I’m trying to stave off an emotional relapse.
Thank you all for the support and feedback these past several months, it’s much appreciated and I remain grateful.
Blessings to all!
Hector