Day 34
I have just eaten a huge cheeseburger, Norwegian fries, salad oozing a fat-filled dressing and iced cream cakes with coffee and now all I can think about is, how soon will it be before I can repeat the same thing all over again? And squashed in every pocket and space within my over-stuffed too-heavy pack are more carbohydrate laden, chocolate and protein filled treats. I am hungry. No matter how much I eat every day, and it seems to be escalating hour by hour, I am still ferociously hungry. For the past few days every thought outside of sleep has been food. No amount of education, disciplined creativity or previously successful controlling action has enabled me to rise above this urge. And suddenly I am remembering the craziest things, aspects of childhood, moments buried so deep that their reappearance is startling.
‘NO BIBLE, NO BREAKFAST’
As a teenager my sister had these words plastered to the wall in stern black. Every day they glared down at me inducing guilt, hunger and unwillingness. And every day I thought that soon I would repent, but not just now. And here I am, today, no different. I saw an opportunity to eat and took the fastest route possible, forsaking two medieval churches, a pretty walk by the lake, and several hours of scrambling over roots and tracks and farms. I took Norway’s equivalent to the Spanish meseta, a lengthy cycle path parallel to the E 16, a glorious flat shortcut, and spent the rest of the day eating and reading, holed up in a room, too warm and too replete to care.