- Time of past OR future Camino
- Various 2014-19
Via Monastica 2022
Primitivo 2024
@MCFearnley just posed this question on another thread.
There are so many layers to it--and depths of answers.
At first I just thought in superficial terms, about geography. Certainly the idea that there is somehow a 'whole' camino that one must walk to be a 'real' pilgrim badly needs debunking.
(Not even considering the issue here of distance to get a Compostela that @Rebekah Scott wrote about in the thread she started this Spring which is still going... (https://www.caminodesantiago.me/com...m-why-change-the-100-km-rule-to-300-km.39220/)
But MC's question soon took me to more interesting places, about 'whole' in the sense of complete rather than anything to do with distance.
I'd be willing to bet most of us who are repeat offenders were only going to do one Camino.
Heck, I was only going to do one meditation retreat. That's another story--but basically begs the same question:
So when will I feel 'done' with the Camino--if I can imagine that?
And if 'done' is unfathomable, what is my gold-standard 'satisfying' Camino?
You??
I'll jump in by saying that for me feeling 'done' will be about transcending inner edges and outgrowing limits. And through directly confronting and purifying the self-centeredness that I can't otherwise see.
The Camino can put the ego's feet to the fire PDQ, and I love/hate that about it.
Plans? Ha ha! Yeah, right.
Opinions about anything? Hundreds, all conflicting in the small space of an albergue bunk room.
Having judgements and being judged? Oh, just a few...ad naseum.
So I guess I'll be able to say 'I've done what I came to do' when this stuff no longer has the power to hijack me no matter what comes up along the way.
And then would I stop wanting to walk more caminos?
It's such a hypothetical question, but probably not: I like being (and meditating) outside and on my feet too much. Anyway, it's a moot point because by the time the inner work's done, I'll probably be too old and decrepit to walk anyway.
But who knows? Maybe at some point I'll just feel not 'done' in terms of inner work, but somehow finished with the Camino and ready to move on--in the same mysterious way I started in the first place.
Satisfaction, though...that's a bit easier.
There are so many layers to it--and depths of answers.
At first I just thought in superficial terms, about geography. Certainly the idea that there is somehow a 'whole' camino that one must walk to be a 'real' pilgrim badly needs debunking.
(Not even considering the issue here of distance to get a Compostela that @Rebekah Scott wrote about in the thread she started this Spring which is still going... (https://www.caminodesantiago.me/com...m-why-change-the-100-km-rule-to-300-km.39220/)
But MC's question soon took me to more interesting places, about 'whole' in the sense of complete rather than anything to do with distance.
I'd be willing to bet most of us who are repeat offenders were only going to do one Camino.
Heck, I was only going to do one meditation retreat. That's another story--but basically begs the same question:
So when will I feel 'done' with the Camino--if I can imagine that?
And if 'done' is unfathomable, what is my gold-standard 'satisfying' Camino?
You??
I'll jump in by saying that for me feeling 'done' will be about transcending inner edges and outgrowing limits. And through directly confronting and purifying the self-centeredness that I can't otherwise see.
The Camino can put the ego's feet to the fire PDQ, and I love/hate that about it.
Plans? Ha ha! Yeah, right.
Opinions about anything? Hundreds, all conflicting in the small space of an albergue bunk room.
Having judgements and being judged? Oh, just a few...ad naseum.
So I guess I'll be able to say 'I've done what I came to do' when this stuff no longer has the power to hijack me no matter what comes up along the way.
And then would I stop wanting to walk more caminos?
It's such a hypothetical question, but probably not: I like being (and meditating) outside and on my feet too much. Anyway, it's a moot point because by the time the inner work's done, I'll probably be too old and decrepit to walk anyway.
But who knows? Maybe at some point I'll just feel not 'done' in terms of inner work, but somehow finished with the Camino and ready to move on--in the same mysterious way I started in the first place.
Satisfaction, though...that's a bit easier.
- If (even for one second) I can connect deeply with the heart, and the essence of all things.
- If I get out of my bubble of friends and colleagues who have the same world view as I do--and get challenged.
- Meeting a fellow peregrino/a who has a touching or inspiring story to tell...and all the sharing from the heart that can happen along the way.
- If I can give and (harder) receive...
- If I can connect at least once with someone local whose regular everyday life is actually on the Camino--and understand more about the people and communities we walk through.
- If I get out of my physical and emotional comfort zone and somehow manage to rise to the occasion. (Or fail miserably--but at least I know where the edge is. Whatever.)
- If I learn a bit more patience and contentment--and manage to laugh more.
- If I can relax into the walking without needing to arrive anywhere--and remember that a long long journey is only one step a time again and again...
- If I can walk where there are trees and fields and vast horizons and mossy forests and mountains.
- Seeing a wonderful natural surprise is a total bonus. The fox in the Pyrenees...the deer on the San Olav...the hot air balloon floating above a valley near Santo Domingo de Silos at dawn...or the Specter of Brocken in the morning fog from an alto on the meseta. A little magic goes a very long way and each of these moments is a vivid precious memory.