What made it wonderful,Laurie ?....love to know !............
........Vicrev
Hello "Vicrev". Where to being? Thanks for asking.
Unfortunately, I am an analytical type, and yet the Camino taught me to reach beyond that, to experience beyond that. So...I have found it extremely challenging to put words to my experience. Soon I'm having a gathering - at my friends' suggestion - to share with my friends my experience. I'm having trouble deciding what to do, what to say, how to present it in a way that comes from my heart.
I distinctly recall experiencing something akin to this when my father died a few years ago. I offered up myself as the one who 'guided' the planning and execution of the service. I was to speak eloquently, and yet I spent night after night tearing up pages and pages of what I wrote. I just could not find the right words. I finally gave up and simply released it into the universe, a bit exasperated but believing that if I had to wing-it, it would all be okay. The words would come.
The night before his service as I lay down on a roll-out cot in a hotel room with my siblings, the words came. They poured forth, spilling out of me and onto paper, with depth and humor and warmth and playfulness. I only needed to let go and trust.
So...my Camino? What made it wonderful? Walking, which was much-needed meditation for this left-brained/analytical mind. Nature, which was experienced in rain, wind, and sun. Solitude, which allowed me to be with me, a person I'm learning to truly love and enjoy being with. Sights & sounds, like the chirping of various birds all day and the smell of the grapes ripening on the vines.
I think what makes this, my first Camino, the most wonderful is that I made it happen. (To digress...I believe it's different for everyone. No matter what we experience in a general sense [perhaps things I mentioned in my previous paragraph], the Camino is personal to each individual, because we are all on a slightly different path in our lives.) I made the Camino happen, from start to finish. I didn't realize until I was well into my Camino that at home I had learned to paralyze myself in life with indecision. I want a different job? Internally whine about it. I want to move to a different city? Complain about Seattle. I want a deep intimate love relationship in my life? Feel sorry for myself for all the mistakes that led me to being single, etc., ad nauseum.
On the Camino, about the 4th day in, I got it! The light bulb came on! I'm like the Energizer Bunny in the corner, don't you know? Wound up and perpetually banging myself into the corner. Once I saw this, once it became clear, I began to change. I began - immediately - to make different choices.
That was just a month ago, and I'm home now, in charge of my life, in charge of my destiny. I've applied and interviewed for jobs. I've begun research on the Internet and with friends & family about places I'm considering moving to. I'm working with a realtor to sell my condo first thing in 2014, before the interest rates go up. I've dived back into my volunteer work with determination and more heart than ever. I've spring-cleaned (even tho it's fall) and have simply removed many things from my life that no longer are needed or wanted. I re-joined eHarmony and am no longer feeling I have to find someone AND I'm staying open to men I wouldn't have before.
Most importantly, I changed my attitude. I'm happy. I'm content. More than I've ever been. I'm kind, much more frequently than before. I'm opening my heart more. I'm engaging more. I've been waking up in the morning and setting my intention for the day. I've been expressing gratitude more. I've been listening more.
On the Camino, I never quite knew what was around the corner, literally. No matter how many guidebooks I read (and I didn't follow them much, anyway), nothing prepared me for what was around each corner, turn, bend, tree, village, river, mountain, road. That was perhaps my most important lesson of all - to learn to anxiously (in a good way) anticipate what was coming, trusting it was good, knowing it was an adventure I didn't want to miss.
I've never felt more free in all my life.
What's your Camino story?
Thank you for asking about my journey. I wish you many life journeys which bring you what your hearts' desires as well!
Bom Caminho!
Laurie