michael heitzman
^^^That's me
- Time of past OR future Camino
- Le Puy to Santiago (June 2016)
I leave for my first Camino on the 31st of May, about two weeks from this post. I was ready to hit the road last month, just up and vanish, leaving everything I hold dear and detest behind me. As far as being prepared I'm not. I have my plane tickets, my pack with everything I'll be needing along the route, my hiking boots are broken in and ready to be put to the test, and that's about it. The small amount of French I was supposed to learn, I never did. The Spanish I said I was going to get under my belt didn't work. The train tickets, itinerary, accommodations I should be booking haven't happened yet. All my clothes are cotton. Don't have walking poles. Never got a camera. Not bringing a sleeping pad. I'm dragging, I'm procrastinating. A part me of wants to do it the comfortable, relaxed, responsible way because that's what people suggest. But I just want to wing it.
I don't want to be tied down with what town I need to stay in, whether I'll have a bed to sleep on, a hot meal at the end of the night. I want to be humbled by this. I want to help strangers. I want to be at the mercy of others in a foreign land. Is that mental? My whole life I've been on a schedule, managing my time, managing others, serving patrons, appeasing all, wanting to be appeased, lived comfortably. I'm tired of it. I just want to wake up in Le Puy tomorrow and just head out.
Will I regret this mindset? I know to each their own, but have other people just gone and done it without much consideration and hated it? Loved it? Do it differently?
I don't want to be tied down with what town I need to stay in, whether I'll have a bed to sleep on, a hot meal at the end of the night. I want to be humbled by this. I want to help strangers. I want to be at the mercy of others in a foreign land. Is that mental? My whole life I've been on a schedule, managing my time, managing others, serving patrons, appeasing all, wanting to be appeased, lived comfortably. I'm tired of it. I just want to wake up in Le Puy tomorrow and just head out.
Will I regret this mindset? I know to each their own, but have other people just gone and done it without much consideration and hated it? Loved it? Do it differently?